Lets close this book...

it finally happened. the day he would have someone to love who deserves his love. i always knew he could never be mine to have. like a child looking thru a glass window wanting a brand new sports car,he was too good for me,out of my league,n was never mine in the 1st place.

to d world it seemed like we were merely siblings but selfishly i wanted more than dat. its true when they say the best affairs r the ones u can never have. what i wanted would never be in my grasp. i wanted his love, and his love was like a forbidden fruit that i could never taste.

at first i thought i was over him, gotten over this childish fantasy that i buried deep down in me. i honestly thought i succeed til the moment he told me bout his girlfriend. he's so in love with her,she's his world and he's hers. they were meant to be, and i know it but a part of me shattered to a million pieces after i knew.

you'll probably heard it all before by now. one sided love... but to me this was different as it took time to grow...we didn't click immediately it grew and build from simple conversations.

when we kissed there was a satisfying feeling that i wanted to taste his lips since the day i fell for him. he was my dream that i admired from afar but could never get near to. he would never know how i feel....

All's fine on the outside, i have gotten used to acting fine by now. but i was confused,i wanted him so much but i knew it was wrong. he belonged to someone else and he would never feel the same way as i felt for him.

lust filled me, it took over me and i was hungry for him, however it all ended all too soon. we talked...for the 1st time in awhile n probably for the last time.

i watched him go until he was out of sight before i drag myself away. sometimes i think back in time and wonder... would i change a thing? was it better not knowing him?worth all d confusion?

and d answer is still YES, IT WAS....it was worth the memories,the laughter and happy thoughts. but its all coming to an end of this book. whatever we shared, what we felt, everything involved is over. taking this step i looked back for the last time,no tears just a heavy heart. i looked at his direction and i know he's happier somewhere else with someone he loves and loves him back.

as i close this last chapter i want to say thank you for the memories,for the times we shared ...for everything. i wish you and her to be happy together and all d best. I'll toast to that.

THE END.....