its so easy to say im alrite, to plaster on a smile n moveon with life. but no one knows wats beyond the smile, the 'im okay's' n 'im fine'. just because i look fine on d outside doesnt mean that every day im facing doesnt hurt. i hav my own battles, everyone does, mine's just burried deep down, like way down as it always has been.

im happy with life dun get me wrong, im not all depress n shit, just letting out sum expression to ease d frustration. sometimes we should take time to look past one's smile n not just ask r u okay? but whats bothering u. cos if u noice sumthing isnt rite, it most probabbly isnt.

starry starry nite!

staring out the pitch black sky, only stars shine back at me. blinking its pure diamond-like light onto the quiet neighbourhood. i sumtimes think bout u n noe that im the last thing on ur mind.

i wonder if anyone sees thru my mask that deceives everyone on how happy i really am. im fine is d most common lie told, im guilty of using this line so many times when im not.

sum1 else has came into my life, keeping my mind off alot of things. i love the way he treats me but im cautious with matters of d heart these days, cos i dont wanna b at d losing end again.

wel.. just letting out random thoughts. good nite world. :)

outta my system

Damn, I mean, I just keep thinkin' about you
I mean, I wanna move on but I can?t move on
It?s like you got some kinda hold on me and, man I don?t know
But I'ma go ahead and talk about it, listen

I'm sittin' lookin' out the window like damn
Tryna fix this situation that's at hand
You're still runnin' through my mind
When I'm knowin' that you shouldn't be
Me all on your mind and I'm knowin' that it couldn't be

'Cause you ain't called and I ain't even appalled
I still got a lotta pain, I ain't dealt wit it all
I been runnin' 'round with other chicks, I'm single and they lovin' it
I'm likin' it but I just want the one that I was in love with

That's not the end of it, I'm tryna let you go
I can't get a grip of it is what I'm tryna let you know
You got a hold or some kinda control of me
I don't know what it is but I gotta get you gone from me

I?m workin' at it and it ain't gettin' no better
Just tryna be like, yeah, forget it, whatever
Instead of starin' out this glass, lookin' at this bad weather
Damn, I gotta pull myself together 'cause

When I?m with somebody, all I think 'bout is you
When I?m all alone, that?s all I wanna do
I miss the smilin' faces in my Sidekick, outta town visits
All the time we spent together
Makes it hard to get you outta my system

And you know what you do to me, do to me
You don?t even understand, damn
And you know what you do to me, do to me
It?s so hard to get you outta my system

I?m too attached, my heart won?t let me fall back
I got it bad, that?s what you can call that
And when I see you in the streets, that?s the worse for me
Used to love the little things you did, that?s what works for me

It?s too major, don?t see you in my pager
Know what you doin', where you at or can I see you later?
The fellas tellin' me, ?Just let her go, Bow?
Believe me, I?m tryin', man, I just don?t know how

I be in all the top spots, leavin' with the hot shots
Knowin' they just want me 'cause I?m in the top spot
That?s not poppin' and my brain ain't stoppin'
Thinkin' who she with or where she goin', is she club hoppin'?

I never had this kind of problem in my life
This is my first time dealin' with this kind of fight
It?s every night and every flight and every time you in my sight
Damn, this ain't even right 'cause

When I?m with somebody, all I think 'bout is you
When I?m all alone, that?s all I wanna do
I miss the smilin' faces in my Sidekick, outta town visits
All the time we spent together
Makes it hard to get you outta my system

And you know what you do to me, do to me
You don?t even understand, damn
And you know what you do to me, do to me
It?s so hard to get you outta my system

Is it wrong for me to feel this way?
You been runnin' through my mind all day, can you feel me?
I been tryna get you off my mind
But I can't after all this time, that?s what kills me

Is it wrong for me to feel this way?
You been runnin' through my mind all day, can you feel me?
I been tryna get you off my mind
But I can't after all this time and it kills me

When I?m with somebody, all I think 'bout is you
When I?m all alone, that?s all I wanna do
I miss the smilin' faces in my Sidekick, outta town visits
All the time we spent together
Makes it hard to get you outta my system

And you know what you do to me, do to me
You don?t even understand, damn
And you know what you do to me, do to me
It?s so hard to get you outta my system

I remember everything that me and you talked about
Me and you had our whole life planned out together
And if I could, I would turn back the hands of time
And correct all my mistakes that I ever did

But now I guess I gotta move on, right?
It?s still hard and I still love you to this day
Peace

-outta my system by bow wow!

love this song. :)

hates the short attention span.

n no its not me, its how guys hav super short attention span when dating girls. no kidding. its goes great in d begining. n dies down without warning. next thing u noe, ur wondering if u r even in a r/s to start with. its so bloody annoying.

why cant guys not get bored wit dating 1 girl for a long period of time? anyway screw it. im not gonna wast emy breath thinking bout what should n should not be done. im sticking with being single. r/s r overated anyway. ;P

trial balances r meant to balance, so y doesnt mine?

yea, accounts is boring me to tears n yet its so frustrating cos it doesnt balance or add up. how can such a dull subject be so complicated???? ishh....................

moving on, life's been pretty good to me. am loving the weather these few days, hopefully it stays this good cos i cant wait for spring to come.... :) am a summer person so spring is my 2nd fav season.

had a massive update on songs from roger a few days ago, n i hav yet listen to all of them but i do like quite a few from claude kelly, n no he isnt gay tho he sings sum songs from a girls point of view. he's a song writer n a rathe rgood one may i add. lyrics-wise.

wel.. im suppose to be doing my accounst so i should getback to that. nites peeps. :)

no fuss,no complicated stuff.

altho i din say half d things that i wanted to in my head, but its okay cos we need not explain ourselves as that wont change the end result. i hope we'l be great friends n i hope u'll be the best that u can be, not for anyone else but for urself... to exceed that expectations of others that have dubbed upon u. i noe ur r capable of alot of great accomplishments if u could be bothered to give it ur all. im glad ur busy with ur work as it shows that u care bout studies. :) hope to c u around.

n im always here for a chat/hug! :D

3 months

never thought we'll be 2gtehr this long but eventho we did, part of us died on d way of getting here.
i miss u so much at times but i noe u dont. n it kills me to noe that u never will. but i will be okay, u may never noe this but u were my sunshine, n u really did make me smile for awhile.. once upon a time.

i loved u n now i've losts u... im losing grip on what we had... n i cant find it back. its okay, i guess we were never meant to be.. but i wish u ntg but d best, n even if everyone has their back agaisnt u, i will be here for u. no but's, no exception's, cos thats just kindda person i am. u can stand under my umbrella. :)

random thought!

was reading sum older posts n i realise how often i updated d blog when i 1st got here. how whne i din had any friends n spend my fridays n sats in. how i bloged cos i was bored outta my mind.



looking at things now, its so different from a few months ago. im almost never home on fri n sat nights these days, n im only back after midnight when im out.







i use to worry bout not fitting in, bout if i will ever make any friends n turns out i was worrying for ntg cos i did make friends that made life so much more fun. that made uni so much more bearable. :)







i remember d random web cam moments when i used to chat with my sister n she would tel me how everything was back home,how i was always sad after those webcam sessions cos i feel like i was losing touch with everything i was familiar with.. losing grip on everything i knew so wel..







it worries me less now, cos i realise starting over isnt that hard after all.. learning everything from d scratch again can be frustrating but u get to be familiar with new things.. with new ppl.. in a new environment.







now that uni is back on,the workload has given me less time to worry bout myself n more attention to my grades that i need to pull up after the average grades i got last sem. i noe i can do better n i should hav done better. but i din, so im determined to do better this sem.







its a pretty dull post peeps but im just ranting anyway. :)




the current hairstyle. :) yeshh... im a redhead! x) wel.. brownish with a tinge of red. hehe...

a shot of me n shev at a zouk club in kl. :) 1 of d best nites ever.....<3>

nites n peace out y'all! :)

Xx...

dont let me stop u.

randomly i felt like this songs just expresses how i feel.

I used to be a little bit shy
I kept my deepest feelings inside
Speaking up to you about my
Emotions has always been hard
But this just can't wait
Tonight I feel a little bit brave
So I won't let one more day pass without you
Explaining what we are

This is gonna sound kind of silly
But I couldn't help but notice
The last time you kissed me
You kept both eyes opened
Baby can you tell me what does that mean?
If you're looking over your shoulder
Then you don't need to be with me
And I don't need to hold on

Don't let me stop you
From doing what you want to do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool
Take no chance get over you
No no, don't let me stop you
If you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me
If it ain't true, no
Don't let me stop you

A lot of things I can take
Got a high thresh hold for pain
But let's get one thing straight
I'm not down to share you with anyone
If that's not what you're looking for
Nice knowing you but there's the door
Cause I know that I can find someone
Who'll give me what I want

This is gonna sound kind of silly
If you're looking over your shoulder
Then you don't need to be with me
And I don't need to hold on

Don't let me stop you
From doing what you want to do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool
Take no chance, get over you
No no, don't let me stop you
If you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me
If it ain't true, no
Don't let me stop you

Even if I end up broken hearted
I won't lie
I don't wanna hear goodbye
But either way I'll be alright

Don't let me stop you
From doing what you want to do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool
Take no chance, get over you
No no, don't let me stop you
If you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me
If it ain't true, no
Don't let me stop you

Don't let me stop you
From doing what you want to do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool
Take no chance, get over you
No no, don't let me stop you
If you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me
If it ain't true, no
Don't let me stop you

dont let me stop u by kelly clarkson