BOXing day!

volunteering in teh orphanage was pretty hectic, esp during meal times. but in d end of the day it was worth all teh sweat to see those smiles on these kids's faces. :) it feels good giving back to the community. giving these kids a festive meal to remember. staying up to watch soccer tonight, supposrt of course my fav soccer team, MANCHESTER UNITED! :D against Chelsea! cant wait to see M.U kick ass! woo.. off now. merry 2nd day of xmas/ Boxing day peeps! :)

on another note,

finally read ur blog earlier, it was all good til i came upon

'Like when i was trying to figure out how to end my relationship,
It took so long i almost went crazy in the process'

and thats when i realised it actually hurt to read that. that i've been such a fool to think that u felt d same as i did for u once upon a time. it shouldnt hurt, it shouldnt affect me now, after all this time, but it does n i dont know why. i dont wanna know the reason cos that would force me to face the truth that i've been denying.

i rather leave it, i was better off not knowing that i was a fool to believe that u could actually come anywhere close to how i felt for u.

one more hour til i turn 19. :)

i feel old all of a sudden, but then who doesnt on every birthday. looking at my sisters graduation pictures just reminds how quickly 2 years hav went went by n i was just like that 2 yrs ago.

looking at the transition form then to now, im surprised at how far i've come. never thought i'll be here today at where i am, thousands of miles away from home, enjoying life in a different land. as i look back at my friends from high school in different paths. i remember all the dreams n predictions we had. how i always wanted to be like my friends, to hang til late at nite n go out whenever i want. looking back then, i wasnt matured enough to handle that kind of freedom to start with. n i appreciate that i din go wild n rebel against what i wanted cos from all the predictions n dreams, mine was d only one that came true.

i never regreted all that i wnet thru,as i take it as experiences that contributed to my growth. who i am today, is someone i never thought i could be 2 yrs ago. i owe heaps to my friends that change me for d better. :) but i stil hav so much more to learn n grow. no matter how old i get, i can always improve to be a better person. thats something i truly believe in.

i guess i better study now, only a week be4 my finals start. *gasp* panic mode hits me now.

xoxo,grace

Torn

Decisions... Trust.... N conscience. Factors that play around my mind to make up my mind. My obedient self is saying no but my fun loving heart says no one has to Noe. I'm torn between wats right n wat I want. Decision... Decisions.... Decisions. We face them everyday with the choices we make affecting our tomorrows in one way or another. I hope I'll make the right one in d end.

wish upon a star

'star shine, star bright, make my wish come true tonight.'

a prayer i used to wished on every night when i was a little girl.

and even when i knew that wishes on a star doesn't come true, i kept wishing anyway.

Thinking faith would keep my wish alive.

it was a way of directing my fantasy of a perfect world in my head... to find hope and peace in a world that fails to provide such security to every individual.

Stars were always my favourite sign.

of course when i was 5 i didn't know that each star was a flaming planets millions and billions light years away.

i always though it was a beautiful natural phenomenal that complemented the moon.

While everyone admired on how lovely the full moon looked,

I would be paying attention to the stars n

thinking to myself ' look at how pretty the stars make the moon shine'

insecurities.

i sometimes dream and wonder if u'll ever love me like u loved her.

this is me with insecurities bursting out a thought.

i know i shouldnt be thinking bout it, cos ur with me now.

but i still see past picstures of how happy u 2 looked.

i know i have plenty of my own but why do i feel like i'll never be as good.

that u'll never feel the connection u had,

i keep thinking maybe we finally had this connection or was it just me?

u gave me one of d best sleepovers i ever had,

just talking n cuddling u made me happy.

i honestly feel like maybe there is a something more to this.

but whenever i have confidence in us,

insecurities kicks in.

leaving me wondering if there was anything more than a spark in d 1st place.

fader-the temper trap

I'm in transit
But I'm stranded on this boat
And I pledge myself allegiance
To a better night's sleep at home

And the sweet, sweet sun's comin' down
Hard, the sun's comin' down
Hard, it burns the bones
So hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover from harm

Talk don't change a thing
Oh, it's fadin' for ya
Words don't sink, they swims
Oh, it's fadin' for ya

Best
This mess we tried our best
For something we can do
While the angels walk with the lonely ones
In the cold rain and rescue you

And this fatal world's comin' down
Hard, walls comin' down
Hard, in all our homes
So hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover from harm

Talk don't change a thing
Oh, it's fadin' for ya
Words don't sink, they swims
Oh, it's fadin' for ya


Talk don't change a thing
Oh, it's fadin' for ya
[I'm in transit]
Words don't sink, they swims
[Ah, sweet as a moment, be that it may]
Oh, it's fadin' for ya

talk dont change a thing..

ever had?

just got home from d city, damn trains. i got lost at central twice just getting there n back. central needs CLEARER signs! no kidding. wasted at least 2 hrs trying to get back to west ryde station. n i was traveling alone with no sense of direction. :( but at least im home now. :)

lots of love n hugs,

graceee.... :)