Torn

Decisions... Trust.... N conscience. Factors that play around my mind to make up my mind. My obedient self is saying no but my fun loving heart says no one has to Noe. I'm torn between wats right n wat I want. Decision... Decisions.... Decisions. We face them everyday with the choices we make affecting our tomorrows in one way or another. I hope I'll make the right one in d end.

wish upon a star

'star shine, star bright, make my wish come true tonight.'

a prayer i used to wished on every night when i was a little girl.

and even when i knew that wishes on a star doesn't come true, i kept wishing anyway.

Thinking faith would keep my wish alive.

it was a way of directing my fantasy of a perfect world in my head... to find hope and peace in a world that fails to provide such security to every individual.

Stars were always my favourite sign.

of course when i was 5 i didn't know that each star was a flaming planets millions and billions light years away.

i always though it was a beautiful natural phenomenal that complemented the moon.

While everyone admired on how lovely the full moon looked,

I would be paying attention to the stars n

thinking to myself ' look at how pretty the stars make the moon shine'

insecurities.

i sometimes dream and wonder if u'll ever love me like u loved her.

this is me with insecurities bursting out a thought.

i know i shouldnt be thinking bout it, cos ur with me now.

but i still see past picstures of how happy u 2 looked.

i know i have plenty of my own but why do i feel like i'll never be as good.

that u'll never feel the connection u had,

i keep thinking maybe we finally had this connection or was it just me?

u gave me one of d best sleepovers i ever had,

just talking n cuddling u made me happy.

i honestly feel like maybe there is a something more to this.

but whenever i have confidence in us,

insecurities kicks in.

leaving me wondering if there was anything more than a spark in d 1st place.

fader-the temper trap

I'm in transit
But I'm stranded on this boat
And I pledge myself allegiance
To a better night's sleep at home

And the sweet, sweet sun's comin' down
Hard, the sun's comin' down
Hard, it burns the bones
So hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover from harm

Talk don't change a thing
Oh, it's fadin' for ya
Words don't sink, they swims
Oh, it's fadin' for ya

Best
This mess we tried our best
For something we can do
While the angels walk with the lonely ones
In the cold rain and rescue you

And this fatal world's comin' down
Hard, walls comin' down
Hard, in all our homes
So hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover
Hold a hand for cover from harm

Talk don't change a thing
Oh, it's fadin' for ya
Words don't sink, they swims
Oh, it's fadin' for ya


Talk don't change a thing
Oh, it's fadin' for ya
[I'm in transit]
Words don't sink, they swims
[Ah, sweet as a moment, be that it may]
Oh, it's fadin' for ya

talk dont change a thing..

ever had?

just got home from d city, damn trains. i got lost at central twice just getting there n back. central needs CLEARER signs! no kidding. wasted at least 2 hrs trying to get back to west ryde station. n i was traveling alone with no sense of direction. :( but at least im home now. :)

lots of love n hugs,

graceee.... :)

its so easy to say im alrite, to plaster on a smile n moveon with life. but no one knows wats beyond the smile, the 'im okay's' n 'im fine'. just because i look fine on d outside doesnt mean that every day im facing doesnt hurt. i hav my own battles, everyone does, mine's just burried deep down, like way down as it always has been.

im happy with life dun get me wrong, im not all depress n shit, just letting out sum expression to ease d frustration. sometimes we should take time to look past one's smile n not just ask r u okay? but whats bothering u. cos if u noice sumthing isnt rite, it most probabbly isnt.

starry starry nite!

staring out the pitch black sky, only stars shine back at me. blinking its pure diamond-like light onto the quiet neighbourhood. i sumtimes think bout u n noe that im the last thing on ur mind.

i wonder if anyone sees thru my mask that deceives everyone on how happy i really am. im fine is d most common lie told, im guilty of using this line so many times when im not.

sum1 else has came into my life, keeping my mind off alot of things. i love the way he treats me but im cautious with matters of d heart these days, cos i dont wanna b at d losing end again.

wel.. just letting out random thoughts. good nite world. :)