Ka-Pow DAY! :D

yes im lame, and for those who did not get it, its boxing day! get it?? but anyway this Christmas I decided to stay back in Sydney and experience how Christmas would be like here, its quiet, veryyyyy quiet. maybe i need more friends or something cos house parties dont seem to be very popular here. however i did get many gifts, mostly from one person ( the boyfriend) but i appreciate each and every one of my gifts as well as spending so much time with the family this festive holiday. as different as it is i enjoyed every moment of it. :)

and omg boxing day in the city today was chaos from the start til the end, i started at 10am which is pretty late considering the fact that most shoppers end at 10am and start at 6-7am. but i was still walking around and shopping till 5ish before i was way to hungry to go on. and worse bit wa si didnt even get to hit George street!!!! :( but i was too broke after anyway so kudos to hayby and Zen for making it that far with me in my mad shopping adventure today. :D and all the great buys and random pressies from Zen. :) really sweet but random as well. shall end this post as im way to tired and i still need to clean my room before my parents arrive tomorrow at 12pm!!!! gahhh.. so much to do. nights peeps and i hope u had an awesome festive season as i did. <3

yes go on hating but i really like this song. :)

"Mistletoe"

It’s the most beautiful time of the year

Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer

I should be playing in the winter snow

But I'mma be under the mistletoe

I don’t wanna miss out on the holiday

But I can’t stop staring at your face

I should be playing in the winter snow

But I’mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you

With you, shawty with you

With you under the mistletoe

Everyone's gathering around the fire

Chestnuts roasting like a hot July

I should be chilling with my folks, I know

But I’mma be under the mistletoe

Word on the street Santa's coming tonight,

Reindeer's flying through the sky so high

I should be making a list, I know

But I’mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you

With you, shawty with you

With you under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you

With you, shawty with you

With you under the mistletoe

Aye, love, the wise men followed the star

The way I followed my heart

And it led me to a miracle

Aye, love, don't you buy me nothing

'cause I am feeling one thing, your lips on my lips

That’s a merry, merry Christmas

It’s the most beautiful time of the year

Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer

I should be playing in the winter snow

But I’mma be under the mistletoe

I don’t wanna miss out on the holiday

But I can’t stop staring at your face

I should be playing in the winter snow

But I’mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you

With you, shawty with you

With you under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you

With you, shawty with you

With you, under the mistletoe, under the mistletoe

Kiss me underneath the mistletoe

Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh

Oh, oh, ohhh

Kiss me underneath the mistletoe,

Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh

Oh, oh, ohhh

so who do u wanna spend your Christmas with?

Merry Christmas y'all.

your eyes speak to me, they tell be calm.. be strong.

so u should put up a new post since u have so much time on your hands, just saying. :) n yes u know who u are. ;)

my post for today would be on a self conscious comment that a 'friend' of mine mentioned to me today after i failed to do a proper push up and when he saw my muffin top. its been ages since I've been that self-conscious so it was quite a surprise on how insecure I can get about my body, but then again who doesn't.

maybe its cos i don't go to the gym and work out my abs, triceps and whatever muscle there is on our body but yes i do get self conscious about my figure and i think that it sucks to feel crap about yourself as much as we like to think we have an average good body, i think deep down we all get very self conscious about how we look due to the fact that we don't have perfect bodies ( unless you're Jessica Alba or Megan Fox. ) but yes, as much as i feel crappy i guess we have to admit we ain't perfect but then again normal people aren't pefect. PERFECTION IS OVERRATED anyway. like honestly as if Megan Fox would constantly look that amazing on transformers if it wasn't for makeup and airbrushing. like seriously,its close to impossible to look that amazing in sweat and running for your life from mechanical aliens trying to take over the world.

but all in all, i just wanna say its okay to be insecure about yourself, cos who isn't? and yes we don't want to walk around looking perfect cos that will be boring just like the movie surrogate

but in real life instead. so yes i'm not a size 4, nor am I fat free and yes i do have a muffin top and humble boobs that don't make you stare at my chest when you talk to me, but I am very much unique and normal as can be, so yes i should be happy for exactly the way I am. and if I'm not happy, it doesn't hurt to join the gym but only if you feel comfortable doing so. :)

so this one is about u!

querido sergio.....

after being MIA for months I'm back with just 1 post for now, this is dedicated to the one that strayed and found his way back when everything changed.

A while ago, u had me to the point of doing anything for u. while I ignorantly believed that u knew me better than anyone else at that time, back then u let me down. I learned a valuable lesson from those 3 months, so thank u for that no I'm not being sarcastic, like honestly thank u! I've build my walls up and they don't fall for anyone except the few that I let in, but somehow even as time pass, questions unanswered still haunt me.

it was good catching up with u last night/morning. i haven't spoke to anyone for the entire night in ages.. but it also brought back a lot of memories that i thought i have kept safely tucked away. u were always a charmer, and just when i thought i was immune to your charming words and corny ways, a part of me liked it. which makes feel me terrible as to our situation does nothing to improve the lust and emotional pleasure that we once indulged in and continue to secretly enjoy..

only time will unravel our future, if we crossroads again let us learn not to waste the moments as we did before. i wish u all the best and u know that u can always come to me. :) ;3

ghost in the machine-B.o.B

Tell me where am I supposed to go?
And who am I supposed to believe.
If only you knew what I knew.
Then you could see just what I see.

[Chorus:]
So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

You say I look fine, if only you knew what's on my mind.
You'd see a whole different sign, I couldn't show you even if I tried.
I must have got lost in time when I found out I was only free to be, where ever I want to be.

Some say I'm out of sight, how I run and that we're all so blind.
If you could open up your eyes, you could see what I couldn't describe.
And then, you'd see the signs, and then your soul would be set free, and then you'd be released.

[Chorus:]
So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

Tell me where am I supposed to go.
And who am I supposed to believe.
If only you knew what I knew.
Then you could see. (Hey)

[Chorus:]
So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

And I'm terrified, like I've seen a UFO.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

(I go)
(A UFO)
(And I'm so tired of hiding, I've been running, I've been trying, to get away, to get away)

So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go.
Cause everything ain't what I used to know.
And I try to hide, but I just can't hide no more.
There's nothing worse than feeling like a ghost.

California king bed

i miss how u pull ur faces

us summarized.

thank u

ur the boy i never thought i'll fall for. the one who i never thought i'll spend 10 months with cos we were just so different. but u changed me n i'll never be the same without u. how thing ended was my fault n i did u wrong but im glad that u were in my life. i loved u, n sometimes wonder n think to myself.. i think i still do but not the same way as before. i knew u so much better after. what's said and done cannot be changed. im sorry for everything esp d hurt i have caused u that has pushed u to go back into some of ur old habits. i hope u dun fall back into the same patterns.

if i had a wish i would wish that i could take away the pain n make that mine, to undo the hurt n grieft i caused u but i cant, n sorry doesnt cut it but it has been the best i can do. we cant be together but i do appreciate every moment we had together.

valentine's

so we all know the day valentine's day day where rosses n chocolate's prices hijack up the roof. yes, a single rose will costs u like $15 instead of whatever it usually costs. however, most of us dont really know the story behind such a romantic day. to think that valentine's day was celebrating d day that a priest was beheaded is probably far to none in our minds, but yet its true.

Valetine's day started when a priest or bishop by the name of Saint valentine's secretly went against the Roman Emperor then named Claudius's ban of marriage. you see, according to Claudius, the roman empire was getting larger n larger, thus requiring more capable n strong men to become soldiers. he viewed that when soldeirs got married, they became attached and thus will not become good soldiers. hence he issued a law the banned all marriage to assure that the empire will have quality soldiers.

however, Saint Valentine's did not agree with this ban, n secretly performed marriages. soon after the emperor found out about Valentine's doing, n beheaded him for going agaisnt his law. before he died he wrote a letter to a dear friend, signing off as From Your Valentine, which has stuck to this very day.

so while's you celebrate Valentine's day, its was d work of a priest that never gave up on love. :)

so how did you celebrate your Valentine's?

this was mine.